2010, the year I stopped making resolutions and setting goals. I stopped in living October 2009.
New Year’s 2010 and I am on the cold tile floor, curled up in a heaving sobbing ball, trying hard not to be too loud so the boys won’t hear me, again. I don’t want to live anymore. I wish I was dead. What was I thinking? Actually going to a party hosted by well-meaning friends on New Year’s – WTF? It was all I could do to not scream and cry as everyone was kissing their loved ones at the stroke of midnight. I’m so painfully overwhelmed being a widow. Just two short months ago, Kris, my husband was killed in a motorcycle accident by that bitch. I just want to die and make this pain to go away. I’m so angry and filled with hate and just wish it would all end. Gut wrenching, lonely pain and agony are all I feel. Please God, make it all go away. I wish I had known about grief and goals in 2010 (see resources below for more).
New Year’s 2020 – finds me on the couch reading a book with my beloved Bill. Happy and content with life. We talk quietly about our blessings. They are innumerable. Grandchildren, our kids doing well as young adults, bonus daughter in laws as well. Our relationship is solid, fun and overflowing with love and sacred bonds. The work we do isn’t really work as it’s living out the passion and purpose God’s put us on earth for. We have our health and look forward to many continued years together doing great things. I feel so at peace and full of gratitude for the life I’ve been given and opportunities. I cry tears of joy and thank God for it all. 2019 was a great year! 2020 is looking to be awesome!
2020, the year I reflect how incredibly blessed and grateful I am. I have written intentions and plans digested from a 2019 year-end reflection.(see resources below for how to) I am living my ideal day dream life. The decade difference is surreal. Thank you, God.
2020 – A year of healthy vitality, abundance and creative fun while living in peace and harmony.
That’s my theme and intentions for 2020.
Do you have a theme? If so what is it?
Do you have intentions, goals or plans? Care to share?
I’ve love to hear from you and wish you the best 2020!
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Much peace, love and blessings,
Teresa – Looking forward to a great 2020!
Teresa Q. Bitner, M.Ed., PMP, ACC - Resiliency, Change and Loss Coach
Partnering with those who have been knocked down my life and want to build resiliency and move forward and live a bold life.
Author of Soul Love: How A Dog Taught Me to Breathe Again